Chrissy Teigen and John Legend are mourning the loss of their son one month after announcing their pregnancy.
“We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before. We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough,” Teigen, 34, wrote in a lengthy and emotional Instagram post.
“We never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, just before we leave the hospital,” she continued, sharing some black-and-white photos from the hospital. “But we, for some reason, had started to call this little guy in my belly Jack. So he will always be Jack to us. Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever.”
“To our Jack – I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you,” the grieving mom wrote. “Thank you to everyone who has been sending us positive energy, thoughts and prayers. We feel all of your love and truly appreciate you.”
“We are so grateful for the life we have, for our wonderful babies Luna and Miles, for all the amazing things we’ve been able to experience,” she concluded. “But everyday can’t be full of sunshine. On this darkest of days, we will grieve, we will cry our eyes out. But we will hug and love each other harder and get through it.”
Legend, 41, also shared Teigen’s statement on his own Twitter account, and wrote, “We love you, Jack 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤.”
In September, Teigen was put on bed rest and eventually hospitalized due to excessive bleeding from her placenta. She recounted one ″scary morning″ on Sept. 29 after receiving blood transfusions when she experienced a ″huge blood clot.″
As part of Legend’s “Wild” music video, the parents revealed the surprise pregnancy back in August, with a source telling PEOPLE at the time that Teigen ″never thought it would be possible for Chrissy to get pregnant naturally″ and called the pregnancy a ″miracle.″
Another insider said Teigen — who has been open about how she previously underwent in vitro fertilization to conceive their two children — was ″pretty shocked″ when she found out about the pregnancy.
Opening up about the pregnancy complications that led to her bed rest in September, Teigen said her placenta is ″super weak,″ causing her to bleed, which she said was ″high-risk.″
″It’s always been kind of the bad part of my pregnancies with Luna,″ she said at the time. ″With Miles, it just stopped feeding him. It stopped taking care of him. I was stealing all his food because I was getting huge but he wasn’t getting big at all, so he had to come out early and Luna had to come out early. I was induced both times.”
Earlier this month, the cookbook author was put on bed rest and then hospitalized after experiencing on-and-off bleeding.
Last week, Teigen, mother to Luna and Miles, said she had decided to go to the hospital when things got worse.
“Today the big difference was that it kind of was like if you were to turn a faucet onto low and leave it there,” she said. “It was at the point today where it was never stopping bleeding and that’s obviously very bad.”
She had explained in a previous social post that she “didn’t think I could get pregnant naturally anyway.”
In a 2016 interview with Self magazine, she said they’d struggled with fertility.
“The big question was why this wasn’t working for us when I was young and he was healthy,” she told the magazine. “I thought, people get pregnant by accident all the time! How does this happen?”
The 34-year-old first announced her pregnancy in August in a new music video for her husband’s latest song, “Wild.” After beginning bed rest, the star announced last week that she would be postponing her third cookbook.
It’s unclear how far along she was in the pregnancy.
Source: today.com People.com